Lemonade Prayer

Mothers Day 2011: This is the first Mothers Day that I have been married. I think to myself that if I wanted, I could be a mom by next Mothers Day.   This is a crazy thought, but it does give my stomach butterflies thinking about pregnancy and motherhood. Mothers Day 2012: Well, I have been trying to get pregnant for 8 months. Everyone says that for many couples, it takes a year to conceive.   I am trying to reassure myself that surely by next Mothers Day, I will be a mom. Mothers Day 2013: I have been to the doctor now. He doesn’t know why I haven’t become pregnant after 20 months of trying. He is running tests and assures me that some ovulation medication and intra-uterine inseminations will do the trick. I’m sure that by next Mothers Day, I will be holding my own baby in my arms. Mothers Day 2014: People have begun to comment, inserting their own opinions into the fact that I don’t have children yet. They tell me to relax. ...

Today is my One Month Anniversary.  It marks one month of joy, laughter, and love that I never knew existed.  My heart is overflowing with gratitude for this one month of pure bliss that I never thought I could have.  This one month anniversary is a milestone I didn't know I would reach! That is because one year ago, my life was very different. But I'll get to that in a minute. I met Trevor when I was in a pretty bad spot.  I had the lowest self esteem imaginable, I was depressed, anxiety ridden, broke, living in my sisters basement and not eating food.  I was newly single with a huge desire to get my life back together.  I spent more time on my knees in prayer then I slept at night, I read inspirational church books like a starving kid eating fast food, and I sat alone in the celestial room at the temple more times then I can count.  I just knew that Heavenly Father had good things around the bend for me if I could but rely on the atonement and pi...